Drums Keep Pounding a Rhythm to the Brain: La de da de de

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

My father was diagnosed, as astutely as one can, with the aforementioned malady almost 3 years ago.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

When one makes mention of the face, the body, the movement, anything external one steps onto holy grounds. Welcomed or not. These parts are unmistakable to the naked eye.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

Hiding is nearly impossible, hyper-consciousness is nearly always plausible. Did you see Dad’s    , , ,  , ? I can’t bear to push the backlit buttons down to form what my eyes have seen. How much more does he know it? God have mercy.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

So they say move, defy, exert. Work out your muscles on Chuck Norris’ machine. Over and over. Run faster and beat the bully. I hate this bully (written with tears brimming over the glib edge of my eyes’ horizons and teeth grinding, sharpening to then nip at anything). I’ll write Chuck a letter.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

One day his leg did not obey. He said turn left and only one listened. I sat on skype with him and her and our fuzzy and addled emotions attempting to press against and through the screens, providing solidarity. Though, I doubt they could precisely see my pained face nor I theirs.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

He’s only 55 or something.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

Chuck Norris’ machine has helped, yes. Twat would one do without Chuck’s burning desire to sculpt and shape his muscles? Twat would one do without Chuck scoring that role as Walker, Texas Ranger? We’d probably be really ok and my dad would have found something else to do. Such as this: dancing.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

I was told he and she have been dancing down in the basement. B96 FM, Chicago’s Hit Music Station has been providing the tunes as they move and groove as they only know how and as no one else needs to know. All I care is their laughter and tears have rooms to inhabit and come out of.

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

This connection with music, this connection with body as free and unconstrained from disease, shame, and despair, this connection with another human being–similar in expression and affect–has loosened and unfettered his mortal body.

Has loosened and unfettered his mortal constraints. This is unembellished truth.

He feels uniquely better afterward and might I write, invigorated with life and physical and mental liberty?

Parkinson’s disease is a progressive disorder of the nervous system that affects movement.

Tremor, slowing, freezing.

My, some kind of god must delight and squeal and weep in those moments that my parents share together. Costumed, messy, awkward, trying the moonwalk as he always does, body rolling to the off beat, yet, yet, yet I imagine, with a taste of heaven on their palettes.

A taste of human solidarity in their souls.

A taste of defiance in their blood.

A taste of love within their skin.

God you give mercy, sometimes.

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4 responses to “Drums Keep Pounding a Rhythm to the Brain: La de da de de

  1. morgan

    shoot, you made me cry.

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